Monday, November 8, 2010

Oh crap (with update)

I'm, well, bleeding. Its brown and stringy and clearly old blood mixed in with a lot of mucous. If you talk to Dr. Google, this can be innocuous, it can be the sign of impending doom, it can be everything or nothing. Oh, and there is also slight cramping to take the fear to higher levels

In my first pregnancy, I often frequented the baby and bump forums, and I'd find all these women coming up with thread tittles like, 'I'm bleeding, please help!'. The last part always used to surprise me, like how on earth can a bunch of women on message boards (or even qualified doctors) help you??? This is between you and nature, and if nature decides to wallop you, then that is what is going to happen.

But now I understand what they mean by help (or somewhat do). But the one person who could help now, would be my mother. I wish she was here. Going through this alone is so bloody tough.

Ok, its the end of the day, and the bleeding (if you can call it that, several little strings of very dark red stuff, maybe enough to fill up a teaspoon at best) lasted only the morning. And I had tons of creamy CM with it. Now its all dried up, there is nothing.
I've been on thyroid hormone for around 6 weeks now and my TSH is very low now, but according to the docs, still in normal range. If your TSH is very low or undetectable, then its a good indicator that you may be hyperthyroid, that you got too much hormone. According to the last test (2 weeks ago) I'm not there yet, but then I'm nervous because it has been two weeks since and things might have changed.  Its fairly illogical at this point but in my head I'm linking hyperthyroidism to increased risk of m/c (and maybe blaming it for the bleed too); Does not add up scientifically but try telling that to my panicky brain!

I still have the symptoms of high progesterone, the sore boobs and the other pregnancy symptoms. After every meal today I've felt like I might throw up.  I have no idea what to make of any of this.

Right now, I'm feeling neither positive, nor negative---I'm just numb, and kinda sleepy, which helps tremendously. Hope this will not be one of those nights when the fear is so great it wakes you up at odd hours.

15 comments:

  1. Jay, I think it's normal to have a bit of bleeding (especially brownish colored) in the first trimester. Drink alot of water and relax today.. hopefully, it will stop soon.
    I will be keeping you in my thoughts. I know it's hard to relax but try your best.

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  2. I'm thinking of you and hoping that the baby is just fine in there.

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  3. How stressful! Remember Paige had bleeding but all was fine. I expect the same for you. I have no doubt it is scary! Prayers!

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  4. You're not alone...at least not virtually. I can only imagine how scared you are right now but try to remain calm. I'm praying it's nothing but a little spotting that is common in early pregnancy & that Turbulance is living up to his/her name & is just fine.

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  5. I know it's hard to do, but try to stay calm! You know spotting is common in early pregnancy, and when it's old blood that's a good sign. PLUS - you had a missed m/c the first time, which indicates your body knows how to sustain a pregnancy.

    Ok, I know you know all that, and I imagine it's not very reassuring at all, is it? Can you call your RE and get an u/s tomorrow? I hope so. (((hugs))) You aren't alone, we're all here for you!

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  6. Praying hard for you and keeping you and the bean in my thoughts. Stay off your feet and try to find something else, if possible, to focus on. Know we're all pulling for you.

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  7. Thinking of you and praying it's nothing.

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  8. I got no advice for you - bleeding over in my part of the world today too - but lots of thoughts beaming your way, lots of really positive thoughts. try to hang in there.

    Mo

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  9. I experienced the same thing at about 7 weeks. It only lasted the day. I'm hoping it's nothing serious. Fingers crossed for you!

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  10. Old blood (brown) bleeding is really common in the early weeks; I had it after my first vaginal u/s at 6.5 weeks (so don't be surprised if it happens again after your u/s). I called my RE's office when it happened, they said as long as it's brown and you're not experiencing severe cramps (mild cramps are also normal), it's perfectly normal and common, and no need to come in for a check. I know it's hard, but keep the faith!

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  11. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Hoping that it's not anything serious!

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  12. I agree with the pp. It is not uncommon to have spotting/old blood in the first trimester. (my mother spotted with me well into her second trimester.)
    I hope you're able to get in to see your doctor so your fears can be laid to rest. Thinking of you and sending lots of sticky baby vibes your way!
    ~Big hug~

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  13. Damn, I wrote my last comment before reading this. So much for boring. Hoping so hard for you and Mo.

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  14. I also had some bleeding that lasted a day. I caught it in between classes and my friend covered my class while I tried not to freak out and cry. It was old blood and it is scary but I was told by my OB and RE that it was common. Their advice was not to do anything that would irritate the vagina for a week meaning not ultrasounds, etc.

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  15. It's normal Jay! A couple of my friends had this eperience. Hang in there, I'm sure everything is OK!! Hugs!!

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