Dont. Ever. Assume. Anything.

This is the age where many clinics are moving towards single blastocyst transfer, to avoid the risk of multiples, because bad things can happen even in a twin pregnancy. It is the sensible thing to do, and many people have started to do it. I've clearly told my doctor multiple times that I specifically thought a double blastocyst transfer was a bad idea, and that I wanted to transfer one at a time.

I assumed, stupidly, that my clinic would follow the practice of  freezing one blast/vial. I had a rude awakening today...everything is frozen in pairs. I could have prevented this if I figured this is what they would do, but I assumed that they would freeze single blasts.

Now, I'll have to transfer 2 blasts to my surrogate, or refreeze one (for obvious reasons, I hate this idea). There is so much potential for everything going right, but there is also more potential for things going wrong, and if so, maybe even catastrophically. I've seen enough things go wrong with women with twins on these blogs to know exactly how catastrophically.

And even if most things go right, twins come early. This is a country where the neonatal care is primitive compared to that in the west. I really wanted any child I might be lucky enough to have to be born full term. To be born through a natural delivery, not a C-section.

And now, these options may be gone. And I could have prevented this, had I not assumed things.

Huge sigh, and some tears too.