Friday, September 24, 2010

I'm a gloom and doom kinda gal and....

I need a BIG rap on my knuckles for it! I've been an impatient and overanxious knucklehead. I've had my scary test results for over a week now (because I made them give it to me), but thanks to the inefficiencies in communication between my OB-GYN's office and my RE's office, have not had the official medical interpretation until today. The part that was driving me nuts was my cardiolipin antibody levels (slightly elevated, but nowhere near the big, scary danger zone) and the fact that I could not interpret my lupus anti-coagulant test results by myself, with no reference ranges. Its a complicated test, I I think even docs would have a hard time with that one. Btw- its called the 'Direct Russel Viper Venom test'- kinda cool.

Anyway, I finally got the verdict from my doctor- I don't have to worry about clotting issues!!! They will retest if I make them (and I will) but right now its nothing to worry about. Most people trust what their doctors say implicitly but with my training and my neither-here-nor-there knowledge of medicine and science, cannot help second guessing them, which can be both a good and a very bad thing.

I still have the anti-thyroid autoantibodies and I start synthyroid before pregnancy to see how I respond. Its quite amazing how we adjust to new realities. When I first found out about this, I was a mess (with guilt and fear) but now I'm shrugging it off.

Finally- its CD2 of my new cycle and looking at my day 1 and day 2 temps (low, low, low) I know I'm going to ovulate early this cycle(by day 15-16) and its probably going to be a pattern similar to the one I conceived and lost in. I had sworn I would avoid such a pattern again because I thought there was something wonky with it, but now I'm not so sure it had anything to do with the egg and I'm sick of waiting. Oh for a crystal ball!


  1. Very good news about the test results! I'm so happy for you that you'll be able to move forward...I don't have a crystal ball but I do hope for the very best for you!

  2. I'm so glad you don't have to worry about clotting issues! I know what you mean about being a scientist and constantly questioning doctors. It's so hard to just let go and trust. I hope this is your cycle and the Synthroid does the trick!

  3. Fantastic news!!
    When you find the crystal ball, will you pass it on to me when you're done?
    Thanks :)

  4. You've got to try to remember that you can't control everything friend... I know it's easier said than done(and I am having to learn this lesson myself), but you cannot micromanage this process.

    Try to take a breather friend! You deserve it!