Thursday, April 4, 2013


I'm hanging my head in shame--I've been such a bad, bad blogger. In my defense, I've been really busy, all in good ways. I'm loving my new job. Its a new direction for me, and if I stick with it, it will give me the contacts to launch a completely freelance career in writing, which seems like the ideal career to complement motherhood. Plus, my other green card application (the one that gets me my green card immediately without having to wait in queue) came through! Ridiculously happy about it. I miss America, and want to get back as soon as possible, but yet, have plan B to think about. Still, its nice to have the option.

As for Plan B, it is on ice while I settle into my new job. I'm in this curious state of peace. If you think about it, I've gone through a lot-- 3 miscarriages, 1 failed IVF. But, when not actually going through pregnancy or getting 5 injections a day, I'm actually fine. This feels bizarre- how can I be so totally okay, given all I have been through?

In a couple of months, when I've settled into my new gig, I'll think about the next round of IVF. In the meantime, I'm loading up on the supplement regimen of CCRM;well, atleast some of it.

L-argenine was very bad for me, it messed up my system so badly after 2 days of being on it that I had to stop.

Myo-inositol is something I'm taking, and this is a very interesting one. It seems the best choice for people with PCOS. Its definitely causing changes in my system- whether these will help, hinder or do nothing at all remains to be seen. One of these days, I'll do a literature review of this in fertility- overall, it seems really promising.

Two really interesting things have happened: My antral follicle count is now sustained at around 25 (over the past 3 months), up from the average of around 14 when my Vitamin D levels were very high. The other thing, my DHEAS levels are coming down. This was around 250 when I was vitamin D deficient, climbed to around 350 while  my levels were super high, and now are around 180. This high levels of this hormone was my only concrete sign of PCOS, so this change has the potential to be important. I HOPE this is a good sign, but my physiology is so weird, one can never say anything.

Anyway, I apologize for the long silence. Sadly, I cannot promise to be a frequent blogger, but I'll try to say something atleast once or twice a month. I also want to say congrats to Augusta, who was, at long last, blessed with motherhood. Augusta, you have had such a long road here, I'm SO glad you have made it!


  1. I am a patient of CCRM. I have been since July 2011. I've had 1 IVF and 2 FET and 1 canceled FET. I've also had 3 miscarriages. I am currently taking a "break". Dr. Schoolcraft (my dr. at CCRM) has never prescribed me a vitamin cocktail, but does have me on metformin for PCOS.

  2. Ann- I'm sorry that you have gone through so much at CCRM. I don't know if have looked into other clinics in the area but Conceptions was great for me. I went through 1IVF 2 FET 1 cancelled transfer and 2 miscarriages before they figured out the correct protocol, but once they did... it really worked! I now have 2 sets of twins :)

  3. Jay- I'm glad you are in a good place, even if you are taking a break from the IVF. That's great that your AFC is so high! I love reading all about the science behind it all :) Very interesting

  4. That's great to hear! Thanks!

  5. Welcome back! So funny about the L-arginine -- I tried that once to lower my blood pressure and it gave me the runs, like brutally. Maybe it just needs to be taken in low doses? Also, as a freelance writer myself, I am hoping it is, indeed, a great career to have while raising a baby... I imagine it will definitely be flexible, but it certainly doesn't pay much. :)

  6. Jay, it was so good to see your post. I'm glad the new job is going well and even gladder that the green card came through. America misses you, too. I'm also on the CCRM cocktail, minus the L-arginine. And fingers are firmly crossed for both of us.

  7. So nice to read you again Jay and even nicer to know that what's kept you away from blogging is a great new job. Sounds like you are in stellar health and that you feel at peace right now.

    Thank you so much for your congrats, Jay. I am holding much hope for the day when I can congratulate you on motherhood. This day will come.
    warm hugs from Canada.

  8. It's good to hear from you.